Dear Kris and Nick,
I keep finding myself reading your book over and over again reminding myself why I chose you to parent my son, our son. I love that I have it as a constant reminder of why I thought you two would make the most wonderful parents to Ryker. I cant believe that it hasnt even been 2 months since i received it from Geri. I remember going through and reading your book first and I knew right away that you were it but forced myself to read through the other 2. I even texted Geri that night and told her that I wanted you two and she said to think about it and she would check back in with me the next morning. To tell you the truth, I just went to bed, i didnt need to think about it i knew what i wanted. I waited all day the next day to hear back from Geri to know if you were interested in me being your birth mother, for me to help start your family. I almost jumped out of my skin out of excitement when she called me back to tell me that you were just as excited. I was told to wait to talk to you until I met you in person but that was 2 weeks away from that day and I am not a very patient person.
From the start we were open we talked every day and I am really happy that we did, because when we met in person 2 weeks later I didnt feel like you were strangers at all. That was the first night in a really long time that I felt human, or something more then just a mom who was giving her baby away. It was the first time that anyone referred to the baby as my son. The next 3 weeks our bonding grew but not just with me you bonded with my other 2 kids when you didnt even have to, and that means the world to me. Over the last year they have lost almost everyone who they considered friends, people who were always there for them, so it was nice to have people other then family to bond with them and play with them .
In the last month you both have grown a special place in my heart. You are not only the fathers to Ryker but you have become 2 of my best friends. It was really hard for me to put all my trust into you two as fast as i did because of all the people who have hurt and misused my trust in the past. You two are amazing and you keep thanking me for Ryker and i keep thanking you and you laugh and ask for what so here is the reason.
Thank you for taking me to my doctor appointments
Thank you for the lunches
Thank you for spending time with my kids and showing them sights they have never seen
Thank you for the laughs
Thank you Kris for holding me while I bawled me eyes out, my weakest moment of this entire process
Thank you both for talking to me and sending me pictures and involving me as much as possible
Thank you both for filling my heart in ways you nor no one might never understand
Thank you for being parents to my little boy
Thank you for stepping up to the plate with no hesitations
Thank you for not letting negative people change your mind
Thank you for being strong when I wasnt
Thank you for being you
Thank you so much for everything.